For the majority of my life, I’ve struggled with the idea of truly knowing and embracing my own worth, my own value. Looking from the outside in, many who know me would be surprised by that statement. However, it’s been my reality. As I progress through my journey of God’s gift of healing, I recognize that I am not alone in this struggle. This is a continuous struggle many deal with. It has much to do with what goes on in the inside and the story we unconsciously tell ourselves about who we are. We continually compare ourselves to society’s expectations and internalize the perceived opinions and expectations placed on us by others.
Oftentimes, this deep seeded feeling of low self-worth is also rooted in what we are taught about who we are from a very young age. Our definition of self, is defined very early on and develops over a lifetime of experiences and relationships.
From a young age, my worth was based on what I achieved. I was always celebrated for my accomplishments and as a result I sought to achieve more. While unintentional, I learned that my worth was based on what I achieved and not who I was. This thought pattern of feeling worthy because of my accomplishments was placed deep into my psyche and remained pervasive over my life.
This search for self-worth continued well into adulthood and reflected in my professional life. This pattern became a cycle in my life: work hard, earn money, be celebrated, feel love, adoration, feel good about myself. I had the misguided belief that if I continued to succeed then others would think better of me than deep down I thought about myself. I was continually seeking fulfillment and to fill the emptiness deep within. But the reality is no matter how much money I made or how many titles I had, I would not feel the satisfaction I so desperately sought.
Through my Divine Storm and God’s gift of healing, all of those so called accomplishments have been stripped away. However, through this process I have been blessed with the most Divine revelation I have ever received: I am enough! I am enough because I am a child of God. I need nothing else or no one else to define my self-worth. I am worthy because that is the way that He made me.
I am determined now more than ever to no longer allow this to be an issue in my life. While as an adult I recognize the root cause of this struggle, I am determined to no longer allow this misguided feeling to plague and reek havoc over my life.
I am truly grateful that despite this struggle, I’ve actually been pretty successful in my life and achieved a great deal. Sometimes I reflect on just how far I could have progressed had this not been my struggle. However, the blessing that God constantly offers is an opportunity to start again; He always offers a second chance. And I am in the midst of another one of God’ second chances (or 10,000th chance). I’m in the midst of another cycle of God’s deep healing as He continues to remove everything within me that is not like Him.
When we were children we were told that “God don’t make no junk” and that is truth. What others do to us, say about us and what the world perceives of us can cause us to think less of ourselves than we should. I am determined to no longer allow that to be the case in my life. I am an amazingly beautiful child of God, wonderfully made and I will accept and expect only God’s best in every aspect of my life.
This is the scripture that I’m using to guide this phase of my journey of truly knowing my own worth and embracing the beautiful creation that God has made:
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
God is continually reminding me who I am and whose I am. He’s helping me to realize at the deepest level that my worth resides in Him and absolutely no one else or no other thing. There is no person or material possession that we can obtain to fill the hole in our souls that is Divinely designed for only Jesus to fill. It is just not possible. I know from experience, because I spent many years attempting to fill the holes in my soul with everything else but God. And this has been a fruitless journey to say the least.
I recently recommended to one of my clients that she complete a “Personal Mission Statement” to use as a guide as she considers making some pretty significant life transitions. She is in the process of shifting her focus and rebalancing her commitment to not only achieving her professional goals, but embracing time for self and family. Ironically, as I went through a recent brief storm of my own in beginning to again question my own worth, I realized I need to take my advice. I needed my own personal mission statement to guide me on my pathway of fully knowing and embracing my worth. I needed my own guiding statement that I could use my gauge as new opportunities, new people and new relationships come into my life. I share it as encouragement for others to consider doing the same.
My Personal Mission Statement
I will expect and accept nothing but God’s best in every aspect of my life.
I am God’s masterpiece and I am worthy of all He has for me.
I am a gift and anyone should be honored to have me in their life.
I will only be treated with respect, love and kindness.
I am the prize and I will be pursued.
I need not force anything to occur in my life, I only need to rest in His presence.
I am worthy of only God’s best!
I now read this statement each day as I reminder of who I am. I am a child of God and I will accept nothing but God’s best in every aspect of my life. I highly encourage others to do the same. This is so much more than saying a positive, affirming statement each day. This is about having a daily, constant reminder of who you are and whose you are. I Am God’s masterpiece and I deserve only the best.