“It is said that we are each blessed with the gift to help others heal through sharing our history, sharing our journey, sharing our story. Making yourself open and vulnerable gives permission for others to do the same.” – April Ervin
In considering writing this Blog and future writings, I realized that I would have to be willing to make myself completely vulnerable. Willing to come out of the dark into the light and be willing to share my real life testimony. Not the testimony that fits in a nice neat bow – is appropriate to share and helps to maintain the façade developed over many years. But my real testimony, the good, the bad, the ugly, the shameful, the embarrassing. I do this with full confidence that it is only when we are willing to be completely vulnerable and open and share our full story that true healing can begin.
This Blog is about my own journey of “guided evolution”. The continued guidance I have received and continue to receive in the evolutionary journey of my soul. The core of God’s guidance – sometimes gentle and other times more forceful. The guidance that God has provided me in growing and developing – spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally and nutritionally. It is my hope that through this Blog, others can gain insight, gain perspectives from my journey and see parallels in the subtle and sometimes blatant guidance we each receive in our daily lives.
I cannot take full credit for the title of this Blog. It came to me one day last summer, in my time of quiet and mediation. As I embrace the benefits of quieting my mind and the healing power of meditation, this actually happens more often than not – a name, idea, word, description will come to mind seemingly out of nowhere. When the Blog title came to mind, I was very clear in my spirit of its meaning to me. However, to give a bit more clarity I decided to look up the definitions – which were interesting, insightful and very accurate to what I was seeking to express.
To assist (a person) to travel through, or reach a destination in, an unfamiliar area, as by accompanying or giving directions to the person; to accompany (a sightseer) to show points of interest and to explain their meaning or significance; to force (a person, object, or animal) to move in a certain path.
Any process of formation or growth; development; process of gradual, peaceful, progressive change or development; a motion incomplete in itself, but combining with coordinated motions to produce a single action.
The definitions are very accurate and aligned with much of the experience of my personal journey. At times in my life, I have been blessed with assistance while traveling an unfamiliar area and in need of direction. At other times, I’ve had a deeper meaning pointed out for me, the significance of which I may not have fully understood. Other periods brought guidance through force – forceful movement down an unexpected path I wouldn’t have chosen – but evidently the path I was to take.
Oftentimes when people think of evolution, they think of the argument between creationism vs. evolution. To be very clear, Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior and I know that God, His Father created all of the heavens and earth and all that exists. That’s not the evolution that I’m referring to. What I am referring to is the blessing in the quiet guidance, ordered steps, “coincidences” we receive on a daily basis. The guidance that is always there if we’re quiet enough, clear enough, willing and open to receive that which is available – speaking through our spirits.
As we travel this life’s journey, we continue to receive guidance. Sometimes that guidance comes as a faint whisper, a small inner voice. At other times, that guidance is a bit more forceful – maybe a hand, a nudge, pushing you in a certain direction. At other times it’s what I call “brick wall moments”. It’s as if a brick wall must fall on us to get our attention.
I share through my writing, through “guided evolution” in the hope I can be of service and help others be more open to the guidance – hear the faint whispers, inner voices that guides our everyday lives. Hear the faint whispers before the brick wall moments come.
One of my favorite spiritual leaders – Pastor Joel Osteen – shared about a church member that struggled with serving God and sharing his spiritual gifts because of all that he had done in his past. I related to this story and saw many parallels to my own life. Pastor Osteen referenced the story of Peter in the Bible when Peter saw Jesus walk on water and asked if he could join him. In stepping out of the boat, fear set in and Peter fell. However, when Peter fell Jesus was there to pick him up. With His support, they walked on water together.
There is so much potential locked up in each of us, waiting to be released, waiting to be birthed. But we have to be ready to step out of the boat and move beyond our comfort zone. I’m finally ready. I’m ready to release my past, and step into the God-given plan for my life.
When you’re willing to “step out of the boat”…when you have the courage to move out of your comfort zone…when you step into God’s calling for your life – no matter your past, perceived failures, and transgressions – there is still amazing purpose for your life. He will walk with you and we can walk on water together – if we believe. His only ask is that we take the first step.
“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.” – Rev. Martin Luther King, Jr.
“If you’re going to tap into that hidden treasure, you have to be willing to go where you’ve never gone before…if you’re going to walk on water, you have to be willing to get out of the boat” – Pastor Joel Osteen